And that’s not the biggest deal even. The big worry is what happens if I actually get done – it’s not like I have a CV with anything on it.
I really want this blog to take off. I feel guilty that I can’t offer you more, that the commentaries aren’t coming at the rate of one a day. When I made the index recently, I realized that over two years (this blog is really the combination of blogs previous with new stuff) I only had about 75 commentaries that were good enough to index. And as you know, some of those 75 might as well be duplicates.
Getting ready to leave is always nerve-wracking; for some reason, I want to take stock of everything I’ve done before I take a step. This dissertation needs to get done, but I’m comfortable here. It is possible to make a career duplicating oneself over and over, no?
I’m nervous about everything and nothing – I know once I’m in the school library reading and taking notes and writing, things will feel good. I should be able to blog more, since I’ll be reading tons.
I know once I’m walking to school from where I’m staying, I’ll feel fine even while muttering to myself and trying not to get run over.
Right now, though, all I want to do is play video games. I want to get down there and work. Until then, my mind is on hiatus.
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